So, its October 12, 2006.....and thou it doesnt seem to be happening here in Oshawa, I've gotten reoprts from friends and the televison that says the majority of southern ontario was hit with a large amount of snow today.  BIG DEAL!!  When did the ppl of Canada become such wimps when it comes to a little snow and cold.  There were reports on where citites were in states of emergencies, schools were shut down, trees EVERYWERE.....come on now.  This happens EVERY year around this time......you'd think we'd be accostom to it!

 

People are winning that its early, and there shouldnt be any snow till late Nov, or early Dec.  Maybe its just me, but i have distict memories of trick or treating as a child, and walking thru a few feet of snow (an exsaggeration i'm sure) to get my goodies.  I dont dont remember ppl complaining quite this much about it getting cold.  Now i'm not one to talk, i hate the cold more then anyone else reading this.  I have to say thou, i EXPECT it to happen around this time or year, and yet again, will prepare for it.

 

Are we gonna have to call the army in everytime there are a few flurries on the ground??  Do we have to teach those dumb drivers every year that seem to think thier car will stop as accurately on ice as it would on drive pavement??

 

For those of  you who are new....and those of  you have lived here all your lives...WELCOME TO CANADA!!  Its gonnna snow for the next 6 months!  Get used to it!

 

later dayz 

What can i say about the best Gay Pride i've ever been to, other then saying.....IT WAS THE BEST PRIDE I"VE EVER BEEN TO!!!

 

Thou I have had fun at almost every Pride I've attended since diving head first into the gay culture, this paticualr Pride was extrememl different....and for those of you who know me, know jsut why this is  (*coughs* no candy).

The Hag and i decided that we werent going to do the main events this year, and we couldnt really afford it, and also because we wanted to try something a lil different.  We spent almost the entire weekend walking the streets of Chruch and Young, enjoying the sites, sounds, smells and experiances that this great even has to offer.  We went to our favorite bars (Zippers and Crews) and went to the many beer tents strun about the streets.

We watched the parade, and for the first time in my parade going history, i didnt want to gouoge my own eyes out.  I wasnt busted from the nite before, its wasn't scortching hot, it didnt smell bad (remember the garbage strike a few eyars back), and it didnt go on forever like it seems to always do

One of the best things were all the surprise that we were lucky enough to enjoy along the way.  Watching Michelle Ross (a kick ass 50 somthing black drag queen who blew my mind), Celeda (it think her nameis) who sings Dirty Filthy, and the biggest surprise of all, just the huge amount of fun i had with a group of ppl who i seldom hang out with.  All in all, a woderful time. 

 

I would like to make an offical thank you to all the stars of my Pride.....

Sammy, Jazz, Trevor, Ian, Ricky, Tyler, Donny, James, Kevin, and Paul

 

Special guest appearences by.......

Adam, Joses, Shane, Patrick, Jerseey & Mike, Krista, Josh, Miah & Ryan Hall, David & Cam, Shawn,Jay Stead,  the asian Napolion Dynomite and anyone else whom i've forgoten to mention in my oh so tired ways.

 

I love you all.

 

Also, i want to send out a special shout out to my boi Ruckus, who could not make it to this years festivites.  Know that you were missed, and that we all love you dearly.  I certainly hope that you will be able to be there with us next year.  I love ya brother bear.

 

LATER DAYS MY FEARLESS BIT*CHES

They say that history is written by victors.....and i guess that makes sence.  The victors want to glorify them selves in the eyes of anyone who reads thier stories......and as for the losers, well, who wants to tell the glorious story of a bitter and somewhat embarrasing defeat.  Just ask Germany!

 

The same principal is put to use with indiviuals thru out histroy as well.  We all remember the heroic tales of such people like Hercules, Abraham Lincon, Mother Teresa and the many firefighters that died in the 911 tragidy.  But I ask you this question......would we all think so highly of Mr Lincon, if by chance he ate a baby as a late nite snack, half way thru is term in office??  Probably not.  Why is this you may ask yourself??   Because as much as we like to remember people for the good things they did for the world, as a moral society, we are forced to dwell on the one or two bad things people tend to do inbetween all the good.  Its a pretty raw deal for those who are good pepole, but have messed up a few times along the way.

 

Now I'm not saying that i'm a perfect person or friend (G-d knows that i'm not), but i like to think that i am gerneraly a good person at heart.  I dont steal, i dont cheat, and i try to lie as little as possible, thou i think we all do that from time to time.  I try to be helpfull to those who need it, and i try to be there for a friend who needs some advice or a lil attention.  I go to work everyday and do the best dammed job i can possibly do.  Yet, despite most of my efforts to be good, its those times in which i slip up....say something i shouldn't have, messed up at work, or not be as attentative as i should have been.........which people seem to remember most about me, and judge me for.

A miss calculation at work, a slip of the tounge, a a slight lack in judgment, and all of a sudden i'm a horrible person who doesnt take other people into consideration.  Again, i am not saying i am copletely innocent of these accusations.  I admit that i have done ALL of the aboved mentioned crimes.....but not out of spite, or anger, or jelousy, or anything else like that.  Mearly "mistakes" a person makes in everyday life.  A life time of compliments, encouragement and well wishes can all be undone with the flick of an unthinking tounge.  No matter what you said beofre that, or what might come after it....you will always be remembered by that person for that time where you said something bad.

 

So whats a boi to do??  Guess the simpilest and best asnwer to that is to just be more carful.  Think something thru before i chose to share it with the world.  Make all necessary calculations.  See thru the eyes of someone else, and see how my actions might effect them.  All in all, as always, just try to be a better person, and hope that the world doesnt judge me for the mistakes that i've made, but for the effort i put forth to not make those mistakes.

 

A sincear apology to those i have wronged, and a promise to do better in the future.

 

Later dayz  

Many of you may recall my previous enrty where i described that feeling deep in your stomache caused by infatuation, which much resembles feeling ill (or "tight" according to Ruckus).  Well, I can safley say that i have found a "tightness" which is far greater, and far worse then this.  it is the sickness of financial sketch.  And i got it bad.

Allow me to back track, for those of you who dont know my story.

 

Thanx to a slowdown at work back in the winter, my car insurance lapped cause i was able to make my premiums.  Rather then looking to others for help, I decided that i would continue driving my car until i was able to set it back up...knowing full well the consequences if i was caught.  Of course, as is the luck with me, I was caught back in February.  I was ticketed, lectured,sopenaed, my car impounded.......and humiliated.

Fast forwad 2 months later.....after stuggling to get my car insurance back  and trying in vien to save money.  I went to court yesterday to recieve my fine for the no insurance thing.  Yoou may or not know, but this is quite possibly the WORST driving offence, save a hit and run.  The minimum fine is $5000, with the maximum being $50,000.  OUCH!!  I ccan't even describe my demenor while awaiting my turn in front of the church...ask sam.  All i wanted to do was throw up (luckily i hate it enough not to do it)  When i finally went up, it was almost seral...kinda like bieng in Juge Judy's courtroom, but not as funny cause it was me =(  The final end result, i am happy to say, was not nearly as bad as I had invisioned.  Thanx to my uncanny ability to be uber polite to strangers, the 'arresting' officer put notes in my file that i was exceptionally polite andco-operative.....thus my fine was reduced to a mere $3500 with a year to pay.  TOTALLY doable.

The bad news (if you can believe that WASN'T the bad news) came when i called the impound lot to see what it would cost to get my car out.  Because it was in there for so long ($25/day), add in the tow fee, plus taxes.....i now owe over $2000!!  WHAT THE F*CK!!  I rediculous amount of money to have a car sit on your property for.  And there in lies my big problem.  I have no problems paying that much money, as stoopid as it is.  My problem is that i needed to settle this IMMEDIATLY, or incur more money on it.  If i could make payments or something, this wouldnt be a problem.

 

Where the hell am i supposed to come up with that much money??  I know thta i did this all to myself, but still....how about a lil slack???  I am totally fuckered with no way to dig myself out of this financial hole.  THere is no way that i can earn that much money in such a short period of time, and ther is no way that i'll be able to get a lone with my kind of credit.  Short of killing myself and letting someone else take my debt, and becoming a prostitute for the next week.....the only option i have to to go crawling to my parents and asking for thier help.  An option that i am not relishing.  Even if they do help me....how will I be able to pay them back quickly??  WILL THEY EVEN HELP??  And if they dont.....do i actually even have any other options??

 

I seem to be stuck between a rick and a F*UCK place..with no where to go but down.  So tonite I shall sktch myself to death, and tomorrow morning i will talk to my dad.  *unthusiastic yay*

 

Anyone got 2 Grand they can lend me??

 

Later Dayz

So, i wish i had something fun and interesting to write about today, but saddly, i do not.

 

I was pretty much cooped in all weekend.  I think other then 4 hrs i went out to see a friend, i didnt leave the house at all.  I kept feeling like i should go out and do something.....but there really wasnt anything to do or anyone to do it with.  =(   It happens!  It was still an ok weekend, jsut uneventful.

 SInce i have absolutely nothing relavent to talk about, i thought that i would tell you all about some things that i hate.  WHy??  Cause it'll eat up some time!!  *LoL*

 

#1.  When ever i am driving and i see someone needs to get it....i always try to be nice and let that person in.  paretly because i am a good perosn, and partly because i hope that someone will do the same for me.  What I HATE, is those bastards who are behind these ppl, and cut infront of you right after...like you were letting them in as well.  Driving edicat 101.....only one person let in at a time.  LEARN IT F*CKERS!!  And also.....when i let you in...thank me!!  wave, honk, even a head nodd will do.  Gimme something to work with ppl, so i dont spend 10 minutes cursing your name.

 

#2.  PPl who dont know how to do thier job properly.  I am a carpenter, and all my work relies on the ppl before me doing thier job right.  These framers have have blueprints and have been doing this for YEARS.  How hard is it to make a door opening 82 1/2" hight by 34" wide??  It's always the same.....standard....LEARN IT F*CKERS!!!

 

#3.  Also, why ppl cant learn to do other jobs tha are connected to the ones they already do?  Sometimes, home owners want pocket doors instead of swing doors.  These are those doors that slid into  the wall.  Why is that i am the ONLY person on the whole freakin job site whol knows how to instal these things.  They're not hard...they come with instructions, and again, are always standard.  HOw can out of say.....1000l, i be the only one who knows how to do this.  Its aint hard....LEARN IT F*CKERS!!

 

#4.  Fags on gay.com who feel the need, after deeming themselves not attractive enough for you (usually the old dirty guys), to offer you money for sex.  If ya want an escort, ask for one in the general room, call a phone service, or troll  Chruch St.  Dont be insulting me, thinking i'm some cheap whore....LEARN IT F*CKERS!!

 

#5.  WAITING!!  I'm thr promptest faggot i know.....and my friends can vouche for this.  If i dont make you wait, why the hell should you make me wait.  This goes for everyone...friends, redlights, lineups at banks, ect.  Watches arent hard to use....LEARN IT F*CKERS!!

 

#6.  Insomnia.......need i say more??

 

Ok, think that's all of that for now....i'll do another installment soon, when i got nothing else to write about.

 

 

later dayz